The Good, and its Consequences

I don't want anyone to freak out on me. I want to give you all a pill update. ITS WORKING!!!!!! I still have my cheats here and there, its not perfect. I still have to be focused and plan, and my meals are pretty small and boring. To be honest, I am only getting 4-5 meals in. My calories are really low. But I do spread them out over the day, and I am so freaking thirsty on this stuff I can put down a gallon of water by 1 in the afternoon. I make sure to eat a higher calorie meal every couple days (like salmon or steak with a potato) to keep me from going into starvation mode. That seems to be working. My workouts are great. I've been spending an hour and a half in the gym 4 days a week with a 5th and 6th day of cardio only. Same as what I've posted. I'm doing it. It dosn't keep me up at night, but I need less sleep. I had to drive home fom my parents yesterday evening and I was crashing because I had such a busy weekend (we drove to the snow with the kids..'nuff said) so I took a gamble and took one at 6 pm. I had a 3 hours drive at night then a shopping trip when I got home and a looong reunion night with Mark planned) I got to bed about 1:30 am, and was up and chipper at 8 am. I feel really good this morning. I'm totally loving this stuff. I'm feling great, not high, not hungry, its so FAB!!

Heres the other thing. I am dropping the WEIGHT. I was down to 130 on saturday am.(on my moms scale, which is a pound or 2 lighter than mine, I think)But still, 130!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I had to count the little dashes by hand to make sure it was right. I started at zero and counted every little dash by 5's. I have to say, though, I FEEL 130. SO this is the pattern of how it has played out so far. The first week on the meds I lost 5 pounds. the next week I lost a half inch off of crucial body parts. Now this week again with a 6 pound scale loss. Bodyfat is now down to 22.9 as of this morning. I think my metabolism is on fire!! I didn't measure at my parents, I forgot my tape measure. I'll just do it next week at the end of the challenge, which is in a WEEK!!!!!

There are a couple of downsides to this. Since I'm losing so fast *ducks a punch from Tracey* I'm getting a little skin saggage going on. Mainly in my boobs (about down to a pitiful A cup:( and my lower stomach. really kind of a general feeling of loose skin all over. Where I used to grab hold of fat around my waist, now there is like less fat and more skin or something. I know it will eventually tighten up. Mark hadn't seen me all week and was like "where did your ass go??? Your getting so little!!!" you can imagine the rewards that came his way for those kind of comments! LOL Right now I feel to myself like a skeleton with a little flab and a big butt. LOL My upper body is looking a little scrawny to me, and my boobs are kind of just hanging there, lifelessly. LOL The main idea now I guess is to get the fat off, and then build back up the muscle where I want it later. Bottom line, I'm knocking on size 6's door. I hope she answers soon :) As soon as she lets me in, I'm gonna push her down to the ground and bust in on size 4.

side note: Cade on the way home last night says to me: "Mom, why does you face go in so much right there? (referring to under my cheekbone) Is is because you lost weight or because your getting old??" I did n't know whether to hug him or punch him LOL I just said, "ummm, I think its both."