the kind of motivation that gives you a big shiner

SO I'm over at Deseret Book store looking for stuff for primary, and a lady I know who used to be in my old ward is there working (I know some of the people who work there, its fun) And she say "I didn't know you were expecting" and I laugh and say "oh, I'm not, I'm just fat right now" and she laughs and says "Oh, get outta here, no really, when are you due?" Can a big hole in the floor swallow me now please?? So yeah, pretty horrifying. I don't hold it against her at ALL, First of all I was wearing a long tunic-style top, which looks totally maternity, and then I'm sure I was slouching really bad and my gut was just all relaxed and hanging out. I feel worse for her, because I'm know she felt terrible. SO anyway, funny story, but kind of not at the same time. To make myself feel better I bought a half dozen Lion House Rolls (HEAVEN!!!) and dove in. Then went straight to Ross and bought some clothes that don't make me look pregnant. Well hopefully not AS pregnant.

Then yesterday I got some POSITIVE motivation :D. I was at school and I ran into Becky Babcock (many blog readers know her). I hadn't seen her close up in a few months...Holy moley, she is ripped! She has always been very fit but she looked amazing, veins poppin on her biceps and all. So of course I had to say something and ask her a zillion question. Apparently she is about 15% body fat right now. She and her husband drank 6 protein shakes a day for 6 weeks and got ripped. I guess she has an awesome home gym and lifts 3 days a week (all different types of lifting) and she dropped 10 pounds and 5% body fat in the 6 weeks. At her starting stats that is really impressive. If I did that I'd probably drop 20 because I have so much fat to lose. It is extreme, but oh so tempting. I may have to call her and get more details. Anyway, WOW.

My mom e-mailed me and wants to fly me to Montana for a weekend trip, I am so excited. My MIL is going to fill in for me while I'm gone so I think I will be going the first week of November. I cant' wait!

I am starting to Super-dread school vacation. We have the next 2 weeks off and I have to babysit both girls the whole time. I am going to go to Thatcher for Conference weekend and into monday or mabye even tuesday and that might be my only vaca, but we have to go somewhere!! I just have to keep telling myself.....I will have Christmas money this holiday season, it is really worth it and I have to look at it as a huge blessing! I really am blessed to be able to work from home. REALLY blessed!