Taking my dedication to (freakish) new levels

As some of you may know I go through these crazy episodes that defy all reason to get things done. Slow and steady does NOT win the race for me. I prefer lazy butt and then a gigantic BURST of cleaning induced psychosis , followed by more laziness. I usually end up pulling an all nighter. It had gotten so bad(the laszy) that I had been spending umpteen hours on the 'puter(Kids? I have kids??) and I kid you not up until 4 pm yesterday my christmas tree was up and fully decorated. AAAHHHH! I kind of forgot it was there. It really wasn't bothering me, but I kind of realized that if someone stopped by, say from church or something, I might end up on the "needs service" list so I figured I better get it taken care of. I was a little embarassed when my neighbor saw me taking the boxes into the garage. Oopsie. Well the whole thing flipped a switch and I realized it was almost 2 am and the kitchen was still a mess and the floors could not be seen or I would DEFINETLY end up on the list. I really was not tired. I hadn't taken any caffeine since like 6 that morning, so it wasnt that either. I dunno. So the all nighter goes on. I worked until about 4, then decided well I'm up this late, I may as well finish up and just go straight to the gym a 5:30. So, pop goes the "fatburner" and I just went straight to my leg workout,(which was killer BTW) NO SLEEP. Got home, got the kids to school, Laid down for an hour, now here I am, peppy as if I"d had a solid 8. Its almost 10:30 and Im trying to choke down breakfast. I cut it down to a 1/4 C. oats and a little less protein powder, I'm half done and I"m stuffed. This is M1. What is wrong with me????? I can't rest anymore until after 3 now, because I have a hair client coming in 2 hours, a kid to get to kinder, and I still have to go to thw beauty supply. Really after 3 is no good either, because it homework and house full of hungry kids. I'm really happy I got my workout in today. Am I losing it???

2 trailer park girls go 'round the outside.....

LOL its Eminem day, folks!!!I took it up another notch and got 2.00 miles in 19 minutes. I wanted to give out a big 'ol HELL YEAH but I would've looked like a stupid-head. LOL Especially to the 2 women walking leisurely next to me. :P So put me down for 2.5 weeks of PERFECTION!!! I feel so great. On that note, I have to show ya something......








Alrighty I feel so good but I took this picture and I see a big big pair of jeans. So, what do we learn from this??? I think what happening is that I am sooo focused and I am truly envisioning myself as much leaner, I am telling myself I am a size 4 all day long, and it is happening, but my mind is way ahead of my body. But this is a good thing, do you see? Because as long as my mind thinks it, and my behavior lives it, I will become it. Soon. That, along with a few other cool things is getting this big arse to the gym come hell or high water. I almost feel like I've hypnotised myself, is that crazy???

I have eaten 3 meals, albeit small, so I can hopefully get my eating back up. At least for today. I had 1/2 c. lf cottage and a yogurt and I am a little sick but I will keep going. I do NOT want to mess anything up, and one of my goals is to eat all 5 (if not 6) meals a day, if I only have 4 that is NOT meeting the goal. Gotta go get the chicken on the barb-y right now. MMMMMM sounds good!

Have a great day you guys!!!

What the........???!!!

Where did my profile and links go??? Well I hope they come back soon!

Did a great UBWO today, I didn't get my 100 lbs bench today, in fact I got it up and my right arm gave and the plates crashed to the ground. LOL OOPS!!!Well I got my 3 reps with 80 again and I'll just keep building up. Soon, soon. It was sure heavy though.

I'm eating great, had a great free day, it was just right, I didn't blow my calories out of the water, and it was gooooood!!(TGIFridays burger, mmmm)I stil have been struggling to eat more. Still under 1000 yesterday. EEEK. Well, I'm still not wanting to force myslf to eat. I just CAN"T. I am going to listen to my body. Hopefully it will want more cals tomorrow.

In the last 2 weeks I've lost 4 pounds, 4 INCHES off my waist alone, Its going really well. Feeling soooo good!! Keep it going!! Can't wait for HIIT tomorrow.

Getting ready to watch Darla on Oprah. Thats so cool.

Its all about me me me!!

Help! I'm not eating enough!! Like not even CLOSE! I think I mabye got 800 cals yesterday, and today I bet Im not to 500 yet. I'm not sick, I feel fine, just nothing sounds good. AT ALL. Not even the junk. I havn't even really been thinking that freeday is tomorrow! I got a little hungry a couple times, tried to go get something good and authorized, it just seemed like so much trouble. So I drank some water and I'm good. I had a GREAT LBWO today, I really upped the weights, and shredded my legs and butt. Thanks, Betagen! :) Well, I'm not going to force feed myself, I will make a solid effort to have a good portion sized authorized dinner, then I will hopefull be able to have some cottage cheese before bed. I really do want to have something in me for tomorrows HIIT. I need the energy. I havn't crashed yet, and I'm hoping freeday tomorrow will save me in the nick of time, as long as I really do good with nutritious food, in bigger portions, oooh, mabye a steak??

I ordered an Omron bodyfat tester, hopefully it wil be here monday. Yikes! Do I really want to know??

OK heres the deal with my water. I got suckered in yesterday by this cute O Premium water salesman. I am VERY good at telling salesguys to hit the road, but for some reason I stuck around and listened to the pitch. Now, to me, buying water, especially having it delivered to you house in those huge botles is like the most picky, self absorbed thing ever. I was never really picky, I just knew Arrowhead bottled water tasted yucky, and so did the tap, so I'd gather my quarters and get it from the vending machine for myself, everyone else could do whatever. Mark loves the taste out of the tap (EWW) But he put an electrolysis tester in out tap water, out fridge "filtered" water and some from the vending machine and this is what it looks like. He didn't add anything, I watched very carefully. This is just what happens when the water is separated from the "stuff" in it.



Yeah, the darker one is the tap, the lighter one is from the fridge door. The one I had from water n ice vending machine was better but it looked like a very dehydrated persons urine. Tons of rust in it. WE"VE BEEN DRINKING THIS!!! EW EW EW! SO, we got the freakin water, which is also forified with electrloytes. It tastes awesome, but for 40 bucks a month it better!! If I can't afford it I'll just quit, but I don't know if I can ever drink regular water after seeing that. AZ is notorious for the horrible water, but thats just scary. ANyway, now I will be enjoying 30 degree fresh, electrolyte/calcium/magnesium forified water every day. I can drink bout twice as much of the stuff, by the way, that must mean something!

Like I said, its all about me!!! LOL