
I don't know if it's the new year, getting halfway through my 30's, all my kids leaving all day, or what but Mark and I have really been getting on a bunch of new bandwagons lately. I'm not even sure how to explain it. We are both kind of shifting our focus and starting to do things differently. Its all way too much for one post, it involves homeschooling, and how we need to be setting up a plan for these kids to be leaders and more successful as adults than we have been. I just look at my kids and I see SO much potential, I feel like its just being wasted. In order for them to be better than we are, WE are going to have to step it up! Our family is the only thing we are going to be able to take with us from this life!!! We are not living up to our potential, and it is not doing our kids any favors, lets put it that way. And then I read this:
To My Grown-Up Son
My hands were busy through the day,
I didn't have much time to play
The little games you asked me to.
I didn't have much time for you.
I'd wash your clothes, I'd sew and cook,
But when you'd bring your picture book
And ask me, please, to share your fun,
I'd say, "A little later, Son."
I'd tuck you in all safe at night,
And hear your prayers, turn out the light,
Then tiptoe softly to the door.
I wish I'd stayed a minute more.
For life is short, and years rush past,
A little boy grows up so fast.
No longer is he at your side.
His precious secrets to confide.
The picture books are put away,
There are no children's games to play,
No good-night kiss, no prayers to hear.
That all belongs to yesteryear.
My hands once busy, now lie still
The days are long and hard to fill.
I wish I might go back and do
The little things you asked me to.
—Alice E. Chase
Ahhh, yeah, talk about a punch in the gut! So....things are a changin around here, starting with me, and I am really excited!!