So far so good

Alright well I'm 3 for 3 so far this week on workouts, pretty good ones, too. Eating, not so great but I'm getting better.

My cell phone got stolen (well, I left it at the movie theater accidentally) but when I went back for it it was gone and the jerk was using it (a LOT) so I had to turn it off. Its driving me crazy to think there are people trying to call me and they are getting a busy signal. Luckily I have a vonage line here at the house but most people don't know it. I've sent out e-mails, but it is still bugging me. Tomorrow I am calling all my hair clients to give them my new #. I'll get the old one back as soon as I get a new phone, but that could be a couple weeks still. GRRRR! ANNOYING!!!! Between this, my debit cards being hacked (4 different cards in 5 months) and my documents being stolen,I'm ready to SCREAM!!! I now have no bank accounts, no birth certificate, and no cell phone. L O S E R!!!!

On a happier note I changed my hair color back to its original dark, with no highlights. FUN! I really like it and then my neighbor Jill cut it tonight, it looks cute. I'll take pics tomorrow when the bags under my eyes are lessened. :D

12 days till SCHOOL starts!! WOO HOOOOOOO!!

Here is a picture of the cake I made for the wedding. Its not the best but I still don't have the real pics, so it will have to do. This is after I had carried the entire thing (all 40 lbs of it!) back to the house and it sat out in the heat all night, so its a little wilted. You get the idea though.

Be afraid.......

I feel sick in the pit of my stomach right now, because I have to go to the gym as soon as Mark gets home in the morning and do a HIIT session. I have gone through every excuse in the book, yes I need new shoes (but the treadmills are padded enough, it won't be bad) and I will be TIRED( even though I took a monster nap today) and I am WAY out of shape(but the "easing back into it" hasn't really clicked, I end up doing nothing)SO I'm left with pretty much no excuses.

Heres what has scared me back into action. I had the worst nightmare last night. Just awful. I dreamed Cade and Wyatt had died, and I was putting their bodies (broken into pieces) into big black trash bags (while crying hysterically) and then, worried that it would seem like I had killed them I was told by a friend to also put in the bags things that they had liked. So I woke up sobbing and sick (Dayton was up, disoriented and crying wandering around the house) I think it was him that actually woke me up. After a few scary, horrible moments I realized it was a dream and woah, what a relief. But still, horrible. Really scary. Today I have literally eaten all junk and drank LOTS of soda, which has (I strongly believe) resulted in 3 minor panic attacks. I have been sick to my stomach (like something was wrong) for a few days now, off and on, and I cannot figure out what it is that is causing these feelings. I keep calling Mark at work to make sure he is OK, Cade is with my dad, I just don't like it when somebody is missing from the family like that.

I just have to believe that my horrible physical symtoms are being caused by my lack of good food and water and physical activity. I look sick. I feel sick. Both Sadie and Cooper came up to me at different times today and commented that I look like I "don't have any makeup on" (that was Sadie) and Cooper said I looked "different". My stomach is distended and swollen, I'm all puffy. I did make a delicious and healthy chicken curry dinner the other night, but I ate way too much of it. I am just really needing that lean, tight feeling again. I've lived on the fit side for too long, I can't go back to this horrible chubbed out life, its too hard. Its only been a couple months and I'm miserable, I can't imagine doing this for a lifetime like so many people do.

So tomorrow is going to be really hard. It will be the toughest 30 minutes of my life (oh yeah, I need at least a 5 minute warm up and mabye even a 10 minute cooldown), it will not be pretty. Its gonna be some cellulite jigglin', booty shaken, dead-legged thunder and misery, but I gotta start somewhere. Heaven help me.

EDIT: OK well I did it. It was not pretty. My face was purple when I finished, and my time SUCKED, but I did it. I can say "oh, I'm out of shape" all day long, but then when it hits you in the face....thats not so fun. I do feel better, and I'm glad I did it. My post HIIT meal was 2 string cheese and some grapes. But then I somehow ordered an extra icecream cone from McD's....whoops. Baby steps, people. :D. The rest of today is gonna be awesome. Tomorrow...Upper body and GLUTAMINE!

Slug woman

Yes, I am slug woman. I am in a funky funk, that is for sure. I feel OK, just tired all the time (hmm, wonder why?) all this sleeping in and naps are not good for me anymore. I can't wait for school to get back in so that I can get some structure again. OK, I could just carve myself some structure, but lemme tell you, it is TOO HOT for structure. Who wants to move their big body around when its 115 degrees 24 hours a day?? I certainly don't feel like bouncing around. Its like reverse hibernation for all the cold weather folks with their winter blahs. I have summer vacation blahs. Hopefully this week is the low point and the next 2 weeks I can get back into the swing of things to get ready for school.


Cade was whisked off last minute by my dad to go to Texas for 2 weeks to a fiddling camp. It should be fun for him but I kinda miss him already. Even though he was driving me crazy i.e."Can a person actually DIE from boredom??" LOL so he will be home 2 days before school starts. Crazy. The other kids are totally addicted to this Penguin world website. Its cute, you make up a penguin and meet other penguins and go on adventures with your new friends. So its constant computer regulation and time-keeping.

Anyway, I've been reading all of your blogs, and hopefully I will start posting soon. I just wanted to give all my blends a shout out, you guys are whats keeping me in the fitness game. I love seeing some of you kicking butt, and others of you who are "off" right now, I don't feel so alone :D I'll be back and fighting and kicking booty really soon.

Stuff

Do you ever go through times where you get apprehensive about blogging because you feel sick of hearing yourself go on about yourself?? Kinda feeling like that now, like...I think I'm really sick of myself. Oh well, not much I can do about it, I guess. This is for posterity, its my journal.

Car update: I am VICTORIOUS!!! It took a week and a lot of phone calling, but I am escaping a 2,000 DOLLAR repair bill for 250 bucks. Bottom line-Ford authorized the dealership to do ALL possible repairs (even unnecessary ones I had verbally forbidden, like new and improved spark plugs) without even notifying me, let alone ask my permission. My dealership really went to bat for me and got it worked out. Add to that the fact that their entire system (at Ford) has been down since Friday morning. I have been 1 full week without my car or getting anything resolved because they were shut down. So YAY ME!! Woman 1, Ford,0! I gotta hand it to the dealership, they did me right. Woo HOOO! I get to pick it up in the a.m.

Wedding pic update.... What?? Was there a wedding?? It was so long ago I practically forgot. Sheesh. Mabye tomorrow.

Summer vacation: Not too horribly hellish. Today we splurged and saw Ratatouille and also went to Red Robin for dinner. Tomorrow, pool and gym for sure. Trying to stay busy, and have been putting the kids to work. School starts in 3 weeks, I might actually make it. I am having some little sadness pangs thinking of my little Wyatt baby off to kindergarten all day long. Awwwwwwwwww. Times are a-changin.

Fitness: Baaaaaaaaaad.

Thats all I guess. I think I should be glad theat the drama is on the down low right now. Its great. I am so super blessed.