Birthday Recap

Sooooo it was the 6th anniversary of my 29th birthday today :D I will admit, my day started out pretty rough (sorry for the unload, mom :D) I was just feeling......very UNfantastic. You know, we just have these crazy ideals about how we want to be, what place we want to be in, whatever and I was just feeling very inadequate and a big failure in so many ways. Uncool. Especially since in reality my life is pretty great. But honestly, thats just the truth for today. Plus I tweaked my lower back somehow when I was taking off my pants this morning like some old rickety grandma, which was not helpful to my attitude. It still really hurts. SO after a few hours of crying and trying to pull it together, I decided I better get on with it and just distract myself, so I got out to Target with my gift card (thanks momma!!) and went for some retail therapy. LUCKily, I ran into some SUPER fun girls who seriously know how to party it up at Target and they really made me laugh and helped me find some cute stuff to wear. They are the Target ROCKSTARS! It was truly a tender mercy. Although according to reports, it was more like statistics, because they are there ALL the time!! LOL

SO I headed home to change into clothes that didn't accentuate my muffin top or backfat, which was a nice change from the norm, and then Mark and I headed out to Olive Garden to drown my sorrows in Chicken scampi and spinach artichoke dip. And everyone knows how fun Mark is to go out to lunch with :D

We headed back home just in time for the kids to get home from school, and I spent the rest of my day just chilling out and not doing much. Mark went and got me a cake and another Target card, which I will be thrilled to use for a little more "therapy" tomorrow :D He called in sick to work tonight to be home with me on my birthday, but I am SO tired I told him to just go ahead and go, I'm going to turn in early and all we would do is sit around and watch TV anyway. It was nice of him to offer though.

So now that the day is done, I'm here icing my back, and ready to turn it in. I am SO grateful to all my wonderful friends and family who lifted me up today, brought me treats and presents, and just plain showed me some love. I am TRULY one of the super luckiest, most blessed women on the planet, I just hope that this year I can do my fabulous life a little more justice and improve. I'm not sure why the emotions hit me so hard this time, I used to think that people who got upset over birthdays were so wierd, but I guess it happens to everybody at some point. I will be trying much harder to take advantage of every wonderful day I am given and do more good to myself and others with the blessings I do have. I have so many things about myslef to change and work on. hopefully it wont take another WHOLE 35 years to make some progress. I only have one more 35 year chunk of time left, I better get goal-setting!!!