Bored

I should NOT be bored, I have a TON to do!!! But I don't wanna!!!!! It is SO late, if I'm not gonna get anything accomplished I should go to bed, but I don't wanna do that either. What the heck is my problem?? I've been working a lot, which is great, although I'm not loving the babysitting tomorrow, I'll deal. My procrastination is way outta control at the moment. I have these wierd flare-ups of it sometimes. I hate it. Its like I'm completely paralyzed, I don't know if its the car situation (which has gone downhill on some respects) or what but something is triggering my acute laziness. I didn't even care that Maddy, the queen of clean came over and saw my filthy kitchen today. Mark might even be a little perturbed when he comes home in the morning and has to wade through piles of laundry.....again. Blah.....blah......blah.


So I'm just blogging to stall and kill my precious time. I think friday nights are my hardest with Marks schedule. I get really antsy, and there is nothing on TV, but I'm wiped out from the week, and still have one more busy day to go so I can't really let loose and relax, or something. I need to start hosting scrapbooking or something on friday nights. Now that could be something fun. It would sure be better than sitting around telling myself to do something. I even chugged a Rockstar energy drink at 10 pm and I'm ready to just cash it in anyway. My caffeine tolerance is WAY too high LOL. Aw, screw it. I'm gonna clear a path for Mark to walk through, run the full dishwasher and call it a night. I'm stuck at home babysitting all morning tomorrow, mabye I'll do it then, right?

Hey

I don't have much to update. Still no wedding pics. I don't want to be a pest to Becky, But I WANNA SEE THEM! So I figure today has been a week so mabye I'll call and see if I can come pick them up.

Which brings me to the other thing....still no car. I found out this morning that they are willing to pay half. NOT ok. It will still be almost a thousand. Don't have it, can't get it, = no car for me. They did the work without my permission, and I am planning on fighting that. I'm so frustrated, I don't know what to do. The thing is......we KNEW that things were gonna be tight for the next couple years, which is why we bought a reliable car with a WARRANTY because we knew we couldn't do these big kind of "surprises". So that has completely backfired in my face. I'm trying to live the LOA and have good PMA but it is hard. What can I find in this situation to be positive about and learn?? Don't be poor....ok not helping. How about.......I'm not driving around and mabye I'm being protected form some horrible accident or something. Thats what I'm going with right now. Mark works nights so I have his car most of the day, so at least I have transportation, thats good. BLAH! They called this morning and I felt like Mark just kinda didn't deal with it how it needed to be dealt with.

I'm gonna go to the pool later and relax (as much as possible) and do a water workout while the kids swim, and swim some laps. Plus I'm babysitting today and I have some hair appts. I keep telling myself "Serenity Now....Serenity Now" it will all be OK.

Update

I wish I had weding pics to put up but I don't have them yet, hopefully today or tomorrow. I'm dying to see them and put them up here. Mabye I'll call her this morning and see if they are ready yet. Right now I am up earlier than the fam having some quiet time. I think I'm finally recouperated from last week, now its time to get back into the swing of life. I have a lot to get done today, I don't really want to do any of it, but I guess I have to. My car has to be taken in, thats gonna cost some $$, which really sucks. I was really hoping that a newer vehicle would eliminate stupid repairs, but nothing is perfect I guess. My mom said she was gong to come help me put my house back together after the mayhem of last week, we'll see, she usually bails out on me completely, so I'm not holding my breath.

So anyway, I am ready to get my fitness thing back on track. I can't take being this size any more, I've really had it. I am going to do the John Berardi 4 week program thats in this month's Oxygen magazine. You really can't go wrong with John Berardi. And I wanted to show my new hero Francisca Dennis who is on the cover this month, but I couldn't find a picture that I could copy onto here. She looks amazing and has 6 kids. Anyway I think that the 4 week program will jump start me back into action. I hate starting over, its the worst. For today, though, I'm going off Diet Coke (as soon as my last of it is gone) and eating clean, I'm gonna incline walk today, then do TBC tomorrow and start my program hardcore monday. I will get to the gym every day this week though to get ready. I need a few days before I will be able to start running again. I want to be back down to 135 by my birthday in September. Thats like 20 pounds I need to lose. Yipes. Doable with some intensity and dedication.

Is it almost over??

Weddings are like moving. It sounds like a great idea, you are all pumped up about everything and its so exciting. The planning, the shopping, things coming together......then you get to that point where you just want it to be OVER already!! But it is not an option to just say screw it, I'm tired and not finish. They got married this morning, and I am exhausted!!!!!!!! LOL And now I have just a few hours to get all of us ready for the reception, I'm nervous about the cake, I'm just hoping it all comes together OK. My mom paid someone to do the reception for us but we still have to get all the good there on time and get the bride re-ready. I must say, her hair and makeup turned out super gorgeous. I've been such a bawl-baby this whole week. They did their photos yesterday afternoon, and seeing my little baby sister looking that amazing out on the green lawn in front of the temple, I just completely lost it. And then the ceremony this morning, fuggetaboutit, I was such a crybaby. But it was happy tears, so I guess its OK. I can't wait to post pics.

Tomorrow I have to go to Cottonwood (about 2 hours away) for the grooms reception, and I have to take all the kids, but my mom and dad got a hotel so we will go swimming and then the thing and then drive home late that night. Then my sister goes to the airport at 6 am. I have to admit, it is not easy being the oldest sister, its just a lot of responsibility, and my mom needs me. I'm just really wanting to have this be the best experience of her life so I'm going overboard with the effort a little. Next week may be a bust, I think I may tank out completely because I feel like a wrung out dishrag physically and emotionally right now with all of it. So if you dont hear from me its becuase I'm laying on the couch drooling in a catatonic state. But its cool, I'm just trying to enjoy the parts of it that I can and work hard, it will be over soon enough.