Update

I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO BUSY!!!! I am exhausted, and there is no end in sight. And I'm getting fat. Between yesterday and Sunday I will have done talent show tryouts (Cade), a baptism (I was in charge of putting together) Easter, Marks grandmas funeral (everyone coming from out of town-and my FIL staying here..the rest of the crew gets in tonight) Coopers birthday, football practice and first game, my babysitting job, doing hair appointments, and then all the normal stuff like trying to keep my house together, easter things for preschool, Mark working graves all week so he's sleeping all day, it has been IN-sane!!! Looks like things will be calming down about wednsday of next week.

Last week was bad with old business stuff stress, a real gut-wrencher. Looks like next week might be more of that, but I'm trying to stay away from it and let Mark handle it. I am DEFINETLY going to join back up at the gym. I'm gonna go to a different one though, I really need a change of scenery. I have to have somewhere fun to take the kids during the day while Mark sleeps, and the gym makes the most sense. I can't wait to get back on track. Its my therapy and I can't put a price on my inner peace and happiness. It might be a month or so before I can do it, so I will try to do my best until then. Honestly right now I just have to make it through this crazy weekend and just have as much fun with it as I can. I love when my SIL comes to visit we always have a good time. I hate it that I'm ginormous right now and not looking my best, but oh well, not much I can do about it at this point. It sucks that I have to see just about everyone in Marks ENTIRE family at this funeral and I'm all muffin-top and wide-load. :( I'm trying not to think about it and dress as flattering as possible. Don't count me out just yet, I'm still in the game, just on the sidelines for a bit.

my wake up call

We got our first invite to the pool the other day....fear struck my heart. As much as I want to rejoin the gym,I can't right now, but I must start right now. I oput on a suit and sat by the pool, but kept my shirt on and didn't get in. Now that is NOT the kind of mom I wanna be. That is so BORING. I can even pinch fat on my CALVES right now, thats when I know its getting really bad. Also, my neighbor asked if as gonna run the Pat Tillman run in April, which I had plannned on so I told her we could do it together. No treadmill in sight for me ( I inherited my dads procrastinations issues...who knows when I'll see it) which means I need to hit the streets. I checked out Cardio Coach online, it looks like just what I need. 30-40 minute interval training in my MP3 player. I am willing to run outside, I just have a hard time pushing myself and keeping track of my minutes and stuff. I think this would be perfect for me. I can do my training AND my challenge together, all for 14.95. I listened to some samples, it sounded really good.

So this is what I'm back to, I still want to do my home gym challenge, I am gonna start hanging out on tracker again, and my goal finish time is going to be before I go on our big missouri trip in July to visit family. I'm not quite ready rightthis minute to start, but I will be VERY soon.

Step away from the spreadsheet......

Well that will be impossible...but ya know how an upcoming 'event" gets my mojo flowing like nothing else. What can I say?? I'm a sucker. Mark is the president of the 30-40 something guys at church and we have decided to do a progressive dinner the last weekend in March.Which means I better plan the thing myself, right?? It'll be for about 20 couples, mabye more. There are 7 houses on our cute little street that all are in this group at church with us so this is the obvious choice. I'm pretty sure we're going with a Hawaiian theme and having it catered by a local authentic Hawaiian place. Mark's family has been frequenting Aloha Kitchen for about 17 years now. But yeah, blah blah blah the real thing is here that it gives me somthing to get my butt off the couch and get ready for. I'm getting my carpets and couches cleaned (I cannot express how badly this needs to be done!!!)and for that to happen for some reason my mind tells me that every bedroom, closet, drawer and cubby must be gone through and we need some spot painting again. Plus yardwork, plus plus plus....it all needs to be done before it turns into death valley around here this summer and the trees don't dare move because of the heat. I'm actually thinking of taking every blasted thing off my walls in every room, putting it in a pile and lighting a mat.........no no I mean having my friend Kristi come over and put stuff in a totally new location. She is a decorator and says she has a knack for stuff like that. Her house is lovely so I don't doubt it. I did recieve a gorgeous Armoire from my mom (she didn't have room darn it :) that matches my big white bed, so my master bedroom is lookin perty. I think its time to change the bedding in there again to a more spring-y set. I'll definetly take pics, its gonna look fab.


As I'm rambling on here and getting all excited, I'm thinkin....Mabye all this is what I need to get my fitness going again since I stalled out. Without a big "thing" to do all the time I just get so stagnant in every level of my life. Why is that?? Why can't I just be on top of things for Life's sake, why do I have to have 10,000 things going on in order to get my goals (that are unrelated) accomplished?If I only have 5,000 things to do, that would be more manageable but its not enough. Its like I need an outside focus with a deadline to get anything done. Mabye I'm naturally lazy, but want to prove to others that I'm not so I like these big things to do to compensate. Am I just a lazy overacheiver? A type A wannabe?? Oh well who cares, I'll just make an extensively detailed to-do list for the rest of March and get it done and be proud of myself and call it good. Whatever gets my crap done, right??

On other subjects...Cade is totally kicking butt at tackle football, he's awesome!! 4 days a week of practice is a little rouugh on the gas tank but we'll survive. And the Wyatt/Dayton birthday party at the bounce place totally rocked. 27 kids and 2 hours later, my little guys (4 and 5 now!!!) thought they were the kings of life!! It was like Christmas with all the presents. Pretty pricey for lurps like us, but it was uncommonly good!!!

Those 2 evil words.....

SPRING BREAK!!!! I am about 14 hours into the first day and I'm ready to jump off the nearest bridge!!!! AHHHH! I hate it!!! My friend sent hers to an afternoon day camp for the week, and I'm SO jealous. I wanted to but it was too expensive because of the little boys birthday party tomorrow ($$$$$) and desparately needing my carpets cleaned($$$) and Cade starting football ($$$$$$$$) this month. I have lots of ideas to do with them but I need a little something from them first. If it was just a little warmer we could go swimming, but the water is still way cold. I think I need to just dig in and clean tonight (after they finish picking up) and then we just have to get out the house every day. Or I might kill somebody.

I actually got all of hte stuff I had to do on Thrusday done except the laundry, I did that friday and Friday was just as busy as thursday, and Saturday was a total circus. I was so overloaded I was in bed by 9 friday and saturday nights. My house is a total wreck. I can't get a handle on it with all of these kids here, its such a joke. I did get a "new" washer/dryer but its still leaking a little water so I have to check that out. A guy from church in our neighborhood installs new sets and always has hte ones that he takes away just sitting in his holding place waiting for the "hispanic population" to come take them away every few months or so. Most of them are not broken, just changed out for newer models. I got really nice pretty new Maytag set, WAY nicer than my old set. Hopefully it will keep working. It was so nice of him to do that for me!

This week I have lots of hair, babysitting, the boys party, a girls night out, 3 football practices, and who knows what else coming my way. I'm just going to have to take a break from working out for now, I just can't do it all. There is nothing I can cut out to make room for myself right now, there just isn't. Hopefully by the end of the month things will slow down a little, and I can find a groove. Definetly by the time the kids go back to school in July, things will be a little toned down. I'll have 4 kids gone all day, it will make things a lot better, at least in the daytime. Its really no wonder most moms of many kids are so overweight....its downright nearly impossible to get time every day. I am going to really make the effort to maintain, and try to eat during the day, I'm also considering running around the park that Cade has football practice at 4 times per week and get in some Cardio. I guess it'd be better than sitting there like a lump. I just hate the thought of the other parents and coaches there seeing me run, I'm sure I look like a total idiot, espeially now that I'm so out of shape. And white.

Ok well now I'm gonna get up and try to get dinner made. Cade is at practice with Mark, the boys are at the park doing who knows what but I don't care because they aren't buggung me...and Sadie has a friend over (which I would have said no but I'm doing the mom a personal favor) so its just a little quiet right now. I wanna go lay in my bed and watch TV..but that a'int happening. Its sad when making dinner has to be my Calgon moment!