Well, geez, that was a little harsh.....

I am freaked out and this thing totally hurt my feelings!!! LOL PAINFULLY true.....Yikes! Do I have any hope of changing? Cuz I don't like me after reading this one......

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3rd Grade Drama

Background........Cade is being teased and tripped by a couple other boys for another class during recess soccer games. Wierd because he's actually a smart popular kid, who is class representative and is NOT an aggresive person. But, he tends to react and overreact to being teased, always has. He has trouble just letting things go. So yesterday one of these boys from across the lunchroom gives the universal"crybaby sign"(ya know, rub your fists in your eyes and then pointed to him) So he gets pissed. He tells the lunch teacher, nothing really happens of course. He gets more pissed, but dosnt' want to tell again, because, really, who wans to be a tattletale. So he fumes all afternoon inside, and decided to go find the kid at the tetherball court. Which he does, walks up, says "Bring it" and lands a solid punch square on the side of the kids face. (Um, honey, lets cut down on our ultimate fighting watching, mm'kay?) Well, thats a cute story except the kid goes down to the ground ( Cade was surprised by how wimpy the "bully" was...heheh 'aint it always like that) crying, but heres the kicker..the kid is hearing impaired and has a cochlear implant!!!! So now I'm hoping to not get slapped with a $2,000 bill to fix it or somthing. So far it seems like it'll be OK. So to my crazy mix of embarassment/pride/understanding...My CHILD is SUSPENDED from SCHOOL for 2 days. Not neessarily for punching, but for it being pre-meditated and "taking the law into his own hands". So I can understand that. Part of me feels very guilty because he'd been telling me all this time that a couple kids were kind of giving him trouble, to which my response had been "If you give them a reaction they will continue to bother you" or "did you tell the teacher" Neither of which were very helpful. So this is what it came to. Cade is fine accepting the consequences, he's grounded from all electronics including TV and will be putting 2 full days of housework for me while he's home. But he's fine with that. Hopefully this will put an end to the trouble he's been having. Marks the proud papa of course (you men are SICK) But I understand theres a pcking order and he's doing what it takes to survive and thrive. I'm proud of him for sticking up for himself, even if he made a bad choice on timing. We'll see how it all plays out. SIGHHHHHH.

Somethings brewing.....

Heres the new thing. Today Mark and I were talking about going on the cruise. Right now its in its infancy stage, but we have made a goal to get our deposit in in 2 weeks. Just the thought of going makes me wanna hurl with excitement. I'm not exaggerating. I told Mark that I haven't wanted anything this badly EVER in my life. Thats how bad I want to go. I promised him I would absolutely acieve every goal and work as hard as humanly possible if I could go. He wants to go to, and I know he wants to do this for me. So together we are going to find a way to come up with he funds to do it. I am SO motivated by this prospect. I realize there is a chance it won't happen, but I can't think about that right now. I am so dead serious and I know he is too. We have to find a way. We will find a way. Its killing me right now that I can't get to the gym for another hour. Its also killing me that I'm not going to be able to do circuit training tonight with Mark like we'd planned because he has softball games. Grrrrrr. SO you thought my 4 weeks was good??? Just wait till you see what this momma is gonna pull off in the next 8. I can't wait to see it either. Now its time to rock this shiznit.

4 week pictures and stats

I did it!!! I reached my hip measurement goals. Well, lets back up, I'll give the run down first.

pounds lost-7(I'm not counting the TOM bloat I have going on at this moment)

Inches lost:

Thigh:1.23
Hip:2.5
Waist:4.5

My butt measured 39.5 this a.m., my goal is 35 inches. If I concentrate on that, everything else will fall into place. I feel so happy and I am really gaining steam for this. I had an almost perfect week again and the scale showed a 3 pound gain. It OK though because I did my best, and it will all even out at some point. No worries. I am SO in the zone with this. You guys are such a fantastic support team, I can't even begin to tell you. I think having Mark getting in shape along side me is really helping too. He is really starting to learn about food and what he should and should not be eatng on his own. He has made huge progress as well. You guys don't even know how big of a change this is for him and I am soooooo proud of him. I'm gonna put his pics on here too later once I get them ready.

I am really sad that so many of my awesome blends are struggling!!!I am here for you guys and it's all gonna be OK!!! I promise!! I love all of you and you all inspire me to be better every day. Whether you are on or off or on the fence, I believe in you!!! We have strength in numbers, and there is something so incredible about each one of you individually!!! YOU ALL ROCK!!!!!